Alwaysseeking123 - Untitled

I literally have no fucking clue who I am, sometimes I think I’m a super nice person who has been unfairly treated in life and that everyone should love me but other times I’m convinced I’m the most horrible person in the world who can’t possibly have any real friends and that I deserve all the suffering I’ve gone through as punishment for who I am.

You don’t understand, I don’t want any of it anymore. I don’t want happiness or love or success or anything. I need to stop living because that’s the only thing that can make my pain go away. So no, you telling me to wait for good things doesn’t work. Don’t you get it, no matter what happens, it’s always going to hurt.

Someone who has been emotionally abused will:

• Constantly apologize • Hide their feelings in fear of upsetting you • Break down during small disagreements thinking it will explode • Need a lot of reassurance Please be patient, we are trying.

Self hating right now

Just feeling so empty and lost in my feelings. I feel so stupid to think anyone could like me as much as I like them. Not that I don’t blame them im gross and worthless, anyone could do so much better than me..

Everyone I've ever known has left me,

I've been left and abandoned and neglected

Like a hurt stray puppy on the side of the road

Was I not good enough? Or did they just never realise? Did I do something? They don't have to stay obviously. No one does. But why?

I don't blame them. I don't. I wouldn't stay for me either.

Can I just be enough for someone? Please. Can someone just stay? I don't know how much more abandonment I can take.

“It’s sad, isn’t it? You grow up thinking that love is some wonderful force that will somehow fix everything wrong in the world. You were taught fairytales and happily ever after’s and about princes and princesses. But no one ever told you that love hurts more often than not. No one tells you the pain of unrequited love or the crying at three in the morning, wondering why you weren’t enough. No one told you the harsh reality of letting go when all you wanted to do was hold on. No one told you the absolute torture of watching someone slowly fall out of love with you. Because no one wants to admit that something that was thought to be so beautiful could go so wrong.”

— The Poetic Boy

"Everyone tells me to stay strong. But I've got nothing to hold on".

Secrets, "Lost Cause"

Sad but true… x/