I Really Want To Enter The Void Idk Why I Keep Delaying It.

༉‧₊˚🕯️🖤❀༉‧₊˚ It’s normal for me to not struggle to get what i want. It’s normal for me to only experience the good in life. I don’t conform to people repeatedly saying that “good things don’t last forever” because yes it fucking does! I’m safe and protected and my desires are with me forever. I never go through hardships because I’m privileged and lucky— it’s always been that way and that’s what i’ve always known. What i say goes, because i’m in charge of what happens in my life. I take control in every aspect of my life. I’m confident in the fact that things are always working out for me. I trust myself and my power to manifest things instantly and out of thin air. I always win and I don’t know what failure feels like. I’m surrounded by a supportive community and i’m always in a safe space, that’s just how it is for me. My desires arrive before a doubt could even arise. Actually— i’ve never even doubted myself because i’m just that powerful! I’m never affected by shit other people say because why the hell would i when i know my worth and what I’m capable of? People literally love me and they look up to me. They treat me as if i’m a blessing on earth and i am. I am meant for bigger things in life, it’s my destiny. I am meant for more and i’m not afraid to admit it out loud. I’m meant to be successful no matter what. I’m not ashamed of my desires and dreams. I’m not afraid of anything because i know everything is going according as i’ve intended it to. Isn’t it fucking amazing to be me? Isn’t it just wonderful how i’m living a perfect life? I’m so grateful to be me, living a life filled with miracles and i just never get tired of it. I sleep soundly knowing that i have everything that i want. I wake up refreshed and excited to go out my day. My life is really exciting and it feels like heaven! Everything that happens in my life goes as i’ve expected it to— filled with perfection, and happiness. I will always be in this state, i am permanently in this state because i fucking deserve it. I deserve great things and i know it in my heart and soul. All of my wishes are fulfilled— end of conversation. ･:*:｡･:*:･ﾟ✧*。

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I miss the days when, no matter how slow your internet was, if you paused any video and let it buffer long enough, you could watch it uninterrupted

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Just found this on pinterest, not sure who the user is but I think I should repost it here.

mental over physical.

in my post called "feeling over desire", i have already talked about the importance of fulfillment from within rather than without. i went as far to tell you that when you desire something, it can only ever be fulfilled in imagination and not in your physical reality. today, i'll tell you why exactly that’s the case with the explanation of "states".

key points

key points from former post

you are desiring to feel (inner self), not to actually have (outer self). therefore, you seek fulfillment from within.

by wanting things physically only and refusing to feel good about already having them in imagination, you are conditioning your desires.

what you can’t experience within, you can’t experience without. that way, you are making yourself reliant on outer change.

it’s impossible to give you something you desire internally, externally. it won’t and cannot satisfy you.

your aim isn’t the confirmation of the outer world. it’s the confirmation of imagination and experiencing your desire‘s existence there.

determination of the physical.

first of all, states are crucial. a state determines your thoughts — along with your behaviour, perception, experience and reactions to the physical world — as they come from your feeling aka the state that you are currently occupying. this is important for you to understand because depending on which state you are identifying with, you will reflect it into your material world. conversely, that means that you can never express a state you are not already embodying mentally.

an unfulfilling state.

now, if you aren’t already occupying the state or embodying the version of yourself who has your desire, receiving it in the physical world will not and cannot satisfy you. if you are in an oppositional state, yet manage to obtain results physically, it won't be able to fulfill you. you need to get into the state of your wish being fulfilled FIRST and experience it in imagination BEFORE you can get it in the 3D. that’s also the way you normally go about manifesting things.

experience of a state.

it’s because you aren’t experiencing the outer world, you are experiencing your state. you can only ever experience your state. the outer world is just a conformation of the state you currently happen to be in. although the 3D is a depiction of your imagination, your state or who you are in imagination still determines how your outer world is going to look like.

inner feeling of desire.

again, to desire means to occupy a state, a desired state. when you desire, it’s coming from within, not from without. only your inner self can desire. because after all, your desire is just a feeling — a feeling only your inner self can feel. your outer self, on the other hand, can only give you physical insight on your inner self. and inner feelings can only be fulfilled with feelings from within.

my example.

i remember i was in a relationship once which was very perfect to begin with. however, somehow, i would find myself in a state where i would feel unloved, as if i'm being lied to or just generally doubt my partner’s adoration and affection for me. the more i felt that way and the more i persisted in it, i managed to pull them away — even though everything was seemingly perfect on the outside, it didn’t really feel as perfect on the inside.

see, your physical manifestation can be as desirable as possible but if you happen to be in a contrary state, you won’t be able to keep the physical, nor be content with it.

with affection and adoration, ella.

yeah…