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emotional night

i begin to think about how lonely nights have felt. im beginning to drown in my own thoughts on how physically im not lonely, i have family and friends who i know love me. but im emotionally lonely, i feel as if im gonna feel this loneliness till the end. it’s frightening because i know is one of the possible outcomes of my life.

growth

a mind possible of thinking about anything a body fit to run around all day through the fields a age where you feel free to wonder and i’m here reminiscing about yesterday the mind focused on the work the body of a child is all grown up the age where you want to be rebellious and i’m here thinking about today not sure about what to do not sure if you’ll achieve your goals not sure if you’re free to wonder and i’m here wondering about tomorrow ~c.e

was it the right choice?

you asked the question that i thought i was ready for then it hit me, am i ready? then i thought about it and i realized im not. well im not really sure, so i said no and now i can’t stop thinking about it. i think im just scared that im gonna hurt you or it ends badly but now im not so sure if i did the right thing. was it the right choice?

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don’t blame me love made me crazy, if it doesn’t you ain’t doing it right.

can’t help falling in love

no offense but i love u

scared.

im scared to catch these feelings, these cravings for someone always end the same. they rather end in pain or regret.

but the way you act, the way you talk, the way we talk, its different. its something ive never had. 

but i end up overthinking everything. i end up asking myself “is it worth it?” “should i fall for someone who i just met and probably doesn’t feel the same.” 

then i look at you and…

Source: @eleanorbandey

keep me - khalid

singing our favorite songs but the funny this is every time we did you'd always get the words wrong. and i was your biggest fan, you should never forget it. i bet you no man doesn't love you like i did. doesn't love you lioe i did. does he love you like i did? no, no, no.

"of all weapons in the world, i now know love to be the most dangerous. for i have suffered a mortal wound. when did i fall so deeply under your spell, ms. bennet? i cannot fix the hour or the spot or the look or the words which lay the foundation. i was in the middle before i knew i began. but a proud fool i was. i have faced the harsh truth." - mr. darcy

thought

i find myself thinking about you. i’ve thought about what you could be doing, what you’re thinking, or about you being here. and i can’t stop. i find myself thinking about you again and there’s nothing i can do rather than to bury my love for you.

mel·an·chol·yˈ

melənˌkälē/

noun

1.a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause."an air of melancholy surrounded him"

agreed

i dont want this.

why it is that i have the worst timing. im saying this because currently im falling for you and i don’t know what to do because i don’t want this. im not saying that i don’t want you of course i do it’s just that i know this isn’t gonna work. im sorry that im so negative it’s just that i always screw things up and these relationship stuff never works out with me. im too clingy, i need attention or else i overthink and think you don’t want me anymore, or that im just too emotional and that im a total mess. but i can’t help myself, im just constantly falling when i see you, when you talk to me, and when you show the slightest affection towards me. i never expected to fall for someone like this again. you’re there for me when i need it, you’re the one person right now that i truly trust and has been always there for me. and i don’t know what im gonna do when that time comes and you leave and i never see you again. i don’t want that time to come but it is and there’s no way of avoiding it because it’s gonna happen. maybe in months, weeks, or maybe in a few days but that day will come that we’ll be strangers again. unless you feel that this can work and that you’ll do everything you can to keep this relationship we have. that you won’t care that im an emotional mess, or that i overthink. you’re simply gonna fall for me as much as i fell for you.

- robin williams in 'dead poets society'

what if

what if i never did what i did? would it still be hard knowing that you deserved better, that if you were with someone else you’d be happier? maybe

but i cant go back. im stuck with the decision of letting you go and that i was too scared of being with you and disappointing you. yeah i know its dumb but what can i do now? its not like i can go back?

i have a question, do you ever think about me? yes i know this is dumb and the answer is probably no because i hurt you. but i just wanna know because i think about you. yeah i know you’re probably thinking why and maybe kinda pissed but i do and its all these little things that trigger it, like the stuff that trigger memories. happy ones. but really i just want to know if you ever just a little thought about me.

well yet again you’re never going to see this…

cuties