“It All Ends In Tears Anyway.”

My New Years resolution is to stop wondering if I’m good enough for other people and start wondering if they’re good enough for me.

“A person doesn’t know true hurt and suffering until they’ve felt the pain of falling in love with someone whose affections lie elsewhere.”

—

Rose Gordon

“I was never really insane except on occasions where my heart was touched.”

— Edgar Allan Poe

Amazing

It's amazing how you go through your life meeting people loving some friends and acquaintances. For me it was always easy everyone liked me but love wise i suck. I always have just settled for who ever was available this ended up getting me married for 14 years to a straight up bitch but I stayed till she cheated then it was over. Then ended up with a woman with two kids which I feel in love with. It was great I know had a family off drugs and settled down. But she couldn't stay clean and two weeks after we separated she overdosed. I fell off the wagon again and decided just to stay single and do what ever I wanted and who. Then a girl showed up who had been over with a friend once before. She was amazing she would come hang out in my shop and talk about everything under the sun. Then it started I was falling for her and hard but one problem she was married. Then one night it happened I was actually scared of her I knew she would break me but I couldn't resist it felt so right. Then a few days later her husband kicked her out. God I was so happy to see her and I moved her right in. This was around 19 months ago. Which have been the greatest and happiest of my life. Then around 3 months ago it started to unravel because I was pushing for her to get divorced which didn't go as I thought it would. We split up I had never felt so much pain and hurt but luckily I got her back and her divorce is in the works. I don't know what will become of us I'm still madly in love with her but I'm not so sure she still fills the same I'm hoping it's just her bring nervous about leaving that life and starting a new chapter with me. I fill in my heart she's the one and has been we where just late meeting. The one thing im 100% about is she's the one I want to grow old with and I hope and pray that she fills the same way.

Sometimes you just have to let it be what it is because stressing and getting mad doesn't help a damn thing only makes it worse. I'm figuring this out more and more everyday still doesn't make it any easier though, but it is what it is. Things suck sometimes in those times just try to find something to occupy your time. Because at the end of the day when your the only one who really cares make yourself happy 😎 Let the goodtimes roll

“It wasn’t…it wasn’t this big, huge, dramatic event, you know? It was little things. Tiny moments that kept on happening over and over - until I just couldn’t take it anymore”

- breaking point (@prettynessisthekeytohappiness) //a.d.