What Is Dysautonomia

Sometimes people will decide who you are.

It won't be based on truth. It'll be based on their perception of you.

No matter what you tell them, or how you explain the reasoning behind your actions, they have made up their minds.

Everything good that happens will because of your efforts, will be seen as things that happened despite of you.

People who defend you or stick up for you will be seen as having "a temporary lack of judgement".

For people with ADHD, this will happen more.

They'll call it lazy and unwilling.

Explanations will be called excuses.

They'll repeat the same advice. "Ask for help", even when you tell them you struggle with that.

They'll see your response caused by previous trauma as stubbornness. They'll think you think you know better, they'll think you ignore advice because you forgot.

Your efforts will not be seen.

They'll misinterpret your character.

And you'll be powerless.

I know all of you have experienced this. I know you read this and you can tell me exactly who it was and in what context. A teacher, an employer, a parent (although I really hope it wasn't a parent), maybe a former "friends", or a distant relative.

We all have that same story.

But we are not that person they think we are.

We are valid and true.

They can not decide our character.

They do not have the right. They do not deserve us. They're not worthy of your time, your efforts, your loyalty.

Hold on to that person that had your back.

They are worth it.

odysseus: whaT DO YOU MEAN MOVE THE BED????

penelope: oh sorry i thought we were playing the ask stupid questions game

enneagram aesthetics

type one: freshly pressed linens, the sound of high heels on a marble floor, sunny days, a new lemon candle, writing letters to congress

type two: family photos, your best friend’s laugh, flower gardens, apple pie cooling in the window, picnics in the park 

type three: first place ribbons, sunrise yoga, learning a new skill, iced coffee, giving advice to your best friend 

type four: paint splattered overalls, the crackle of old vinyl records, flea markets, a cinnamon latte, watching the rain fall with a cup of tea

type five: soft flannel shirts, the gentle hum of a fan, museums, the pages of an old book, reading the sunday paper in bed 

type six: paperback mystery novels, a kitten purring, the worn-out couch in your best friend’s house, a favorite perfume, calling an old friend 

type seven: ticket stubs, songs that remind you of your childhood, bustling city streets, polaroids taped to the wall, roadtrips in the fall

type eight: black coffee, the steady tick of a grandfather clock, hiking in the mountains, a cabin in the woods after the first snow, a vase of sunflowers

type nine: peonies, chocolate chip cookies fresh from the oven, soft sweaters, a cozy night in, watercolor paintings hung on the wall

The contrast of Athena and Odysseus now compared to when they met 😭😭 Athena’s dreaming of a kinder world and Odysseus is like, “it doesn’t exist now and if it ever does, it’s beyond my years and I’ll never see it.”

The End of the world as we know it- Armin Arlert

Armin watches as a bloodbath of horror unfolds in front of him, the sounds of cries echoing the infinity of deaths that occur in less than an instant. Armin's chest swells with fear as his comrade's blood splatters like paint on a disgusting canvas of death. With Armin standing on the city's rooftops, he could see that this could be the last time he ever felt the air fill his lungs, the last time he could grasp the feeling of life before it was ripped away by the jaws of death.

Armin finally looks at the girl beside him as the steam gusts toss his hair around in the daylight. He noticed how her arms were lifeless at her side, her swords numbly clasped in her hands, long forgotten. He knew she was thinking the same thing he was;

“How are we going to get out of here alive?"

The thought causes Y/n’s hands to tremble. She couldn't imagine this being her final moment; her mind wouldn't let her. All she knew was that she was terrified and that she was paralyzed. She takes a hesitant breath.

“Y/n?”

As he glances up into her eyes, Armin's calm voice rises, a little sob escaping from the back of his throat. She cocks her head slightly, her gaze locked with Armin's cold blue ones, focusing on his words.

"I have something to say to you. I've never had the the words, or even the confidence, to say this to you before."

Armin takes a tentative step forward and reaches out to take herhand. He immediately observed a difference in the experience surrounding them when he joined their fingers together. The horrors he felt inside were contrasted by her warm, reassuring touch.

“So I'm just going to say it. I adore you. I've always admired you. Everything about you is unique. The way your eyes smile before your lips do, how you laugh at every stupid joke anyone tells you even if it's not funny, and, most importantly, how you have always comforted others even when you are in pain.”

Her vision became blurry as tears streamed down her cheeks after hearing Armin's confession.

"You're lovely, beautiful, and sweet. I don't know what life would be like without you, and I never want to find out. Y/n, I, I..."

Before Armin could finish his sentence, he felt Y/n’s lips brush against his. That kiss was the sweetness of passion, a million loving thoughts condensed into a single moment.

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Hey! The writer here. This is my first official Armin one piece! I love this man sm omg.

how mbti types procrastinate

entp, enfp, intp, infp: considers possibilities of what to do instead of said task. starts typing but gets distracted when trying to choose a song to listen to. probably scrolls through tiktok. thinks that said task is too overwhelming. can't schedule an appointment on the phone by themself.

intj, infj, enfj, entj : plans out everything, but doesn't actually do it. wayyy too perfectionistic. has a bunch of pinterest boards (or playlists) related to said thing. not inspired. not enough pressure. "scheduled procrastination."

estp, esfp, istp, isfp: thinks the task is stupid and boring, and there are more fun/interesting things to do. also thinks that they have enough time to get it done but actually only has 2 hours. doesn't narrow down priorities. probably forget it existed in the first place

isfj, istj, estj, esfj: associates task with bad past experiences and avoids it. thinks it's not important + a waste of time compared to other things. keeps getting stuck on minor criticisms or flaws. doesn't put said thing on their to-do list (not in sight, not in mind!)

Do you ever pretend you're a doctor scrubbing in for the biggest surgery of your career and give yourself a pep talk to make it a success while washing your hands? Or is that just me

advice from doctors for EDS: avoid exercise!

advice from doctors for POTS: exercise!!

Unexpected MBTI Qualities of People I Know

ENFP: Can be real scary when serious

ENFJ: Apologizes at the most minimal mistake

INFJ: Can get really obsessed

ISFP: Wants to be babied

INFP: Can be real scary when angry

INTP: A closeted crybaby

INTJ: When their partner goes all cutesy, they go all cutesy

Enneagram type aesthetics (healthy)

Enneagram type aesthetics (healthy)

Enneagram 1: Crisp white sheets, freshly laundered and neatly laid on the bed. A handwritten letter folded into equal thirds and slipped into a fresh envelope. Handing in a final paper exactly on time, but finishing it the week before. A firm, friendly handshake between people who just met for the first time. A sigh of relief. Nailing a Pinterest recipe on the first try. Gardenias in the spring time. Small lace trim on a sensible dress. A well-aged leather briefcase passed down through generations.

Enneagram 2: The smell of cinnamon buns on a fall morning. Grandmother’s hugs. Grandpa showing you how to fix your bike. Volunteering for charities at Christmas time. Getting a handmade card in the mail. Surprise texts that let you know a friend was thinking about you. Cashmere. Tinkling laughter at a cocktail party. Knowing you’re safe. Arriving to the coffee shop and your friend grabbed your favourite spot and saved it for you. Your first kiss.

Enneagram 3: The feeling right before the gun goes off at the start of the race. A victory lap. A black jacket that goes with everything and looks incredible. A fresh hair cut. Checking the last thing off your to-do list. The heat of stage lights. Games night with old friends. Introducing new friends to one another and everyone hitting it off. Friends who know each other so well they can sit in silence in the same room and consider it a day well spent. 

Enneagram 4: Digging through old trunks in the attic. Trying a new drink at the bar because it sounds dramatic. Holding a friend’s hand while they cry. The joy of discovering a picturesque alleyway. Letting your mind wander for hours. Road trips with the perfect playlist for every landscape. Deep understanding. Finding an old, beat up copy of your favourite book and treasuring the life it’s lead. Dried flowers in a vintage vase. 

Enneagram 5: The smell of an old bookstore. Getting lost on thought trails for hours. A favourite t-shirt that’s worn in all the right places. A monocle passed down through generations. The joy of alone time. Dust drifting lazily through the evening window light. The joy of finally understanding something. Solo hikes in the mountains. A year-long adventure in a foreign country, immersing yourself in the culture. Telling the story for generations.

Enneagram 6: The feeling of sharing your story with a new friend and having them totally understand. Reunion trips in Hawaii. Gathering for orange slices after the soccer game when you’re a kid, and gathering for game night when you all grow up. Quiet nostalgia. A box of embarrassing but endearing photos and treasures from college. The feeling that everything is taken care of. A hug between old friends. Worn in boots that are stylish and functional and fit perfectly. Inside jokes you keep for years.

Enneagram 7: Fireworks in the summer. Working three jobs to save up for a backpacking trip. Drunken karaoke that’s very off key, but everyone sings along and cheers at the end. A mischievous wink. Bragging about knee scrapes after falling off a skateboard while going way too fast. Wearing plaid and polka dots at the same time, because someone said it shouldn’t be done. Ordering menu items that seem terrible, just to try them out. A prank competition between friends.

Enneagram 8: Loud, joyful laughter between friends at a coffee shop. Reading an entire book series in one weekend, wishing you were living the protagonist’s adventurous life. Red lipstick and black turtleneck sweaters. The feeling after a great workout. The smell of strong, fresh coffee. A playful punch from a friend. Opening up to someone and feeling understood. Playing with a rambunctious puppy and cuddling it after you’re both tired out. Taking a secret to the grave.

Enneagram 9: Sunday morning pancakes. A huge, cozy scarf in the fall. Relaxing with a group of friends who know you well. A day where nothing is scheduled. Helping a friend feel better. Sunflowers in the summer. Ordering your favourite dish at your favourite restaurant. Flickering candles in the evening. A knowing smile. The pride of having achieved your goal. The feeling after a warm bath. Warm pumpkin pie and slowly melting whipped cream.