Me And My Mom Clicking Thru FASFA Not Knowing Wtf We Doing 😭😭😭

one of them days of overwhelming exhaustion. i promise i’m working everyday. it’s just hard to be 100% self sufficient i want help but not just any help. i want help from someone who is also self sufficient and i don’t have to constantly check in with to keep making things move forward. it’s not for me, it’s for us. my mind is just overloaded with shit i need to do and endless information. im damn near exploding 😂 but i’m so calm about it. i secretly can’t even think without my brain scrambling everywhere and then shutting down to temporary nothingness 😅

ya boi stay cozy 🙏🏾

here’s one of my favorite beats that i made in December (2021)

so much love and respect for Prince. still learning more about him but he definitely inspires me just from interviews alone.

THIS CHUCK STRANGERS HITTING DIFFERENT THO. DEFINITELY THE MOTIVATION I NEED. TRACK 6 & 7 SHHEEEEEEESHHHH

Celebrating February EVERYDAY

Have you ever wondered what your name actually means/stands for?

What does your name mean?

“You’re not actually thinking, you’re just being logical”

simple but starts to expand when you really t h i n k about it.

Is being logical actually using your brain? or is it programming?

how many times have you thought being logical was the correct answer?

how many times have you done something that made no sense to you but you still did it anyways?

just small portioned food for thought. it can be as deep as going inside yourself for more realizations or as simple as a passing thought.

do you want to think about it or just keep it as simple logic?

what is logic and does it come from your own power?

i don’t think so. if i’m being logical it usually is against my current stream of thoughts, becoming like a forfeit of my desired reality. the compromise if you will.

they say love isn’t logical; doesn’t make “sense”

but you use your senses to navigate your life.

i feel the senses and logic have no correspondence with each other.

what are you really tapped into when you’re being logical?

today i saw two birds chase and hunt a tiny all white butterfly (or moth) until one of the birds caught and ate the butterfly. i was sad for a moment but then i just thought well i guess life goes. there are technically tons of these white butterflies; at least i see them a lot. and i did try to stop the birds slightly but it didn’t work.

i’m finally looking up symbolisms and meanings of what i witnessed and it seems like a symbolism for embracing change? but it was two birds and that seems to always symbolize love in some form and symbolize balance as a whole concept.

this seems to align with my current events and my journey of self. but i feel like there’s more to this if anyone has insight.