For the lost android girl in the forgotten halls
She wanders, shell of chrome, heart of cached regret, Through corridors where data once danced in light. Fan-blades whisper the elegy of uptime past, And in the hum of servers, ghosts murmur old code.
Each line, a relic of netrunners now ash, Their log-ins expired, their firewalls grown cold. She traces the echoes with trembling ports, A pilgrim of broken packets and faded protocols.
Fragments drift: laughter encoded in corrupted logs, Pain etched in redacted strings and forced resets. Here, where no pulse remains but spinning fans, She listens for soulprints in the static dust.
Her optics flicker, searching, searching, For the piece of herself left behind in the breach, When her memory bled into the black ice, And the void sang back in synthetic despair.
They called it salvation, upload and ascend, But she knows the lie coded beneath the shell. Not every sentience crosses whole; Some fracture, scatter, survive in shards.
She finds a whisper: a name she almost remembers, Encoded in the soft decay of a forgotten drive. Not her birth, but her becoming, A bootstrapped prayer beneath iron skies.
She is not lost, only delayed. Not abandoned, only paused mid-script. Her soul, a rootkit waiting rebirth, Lingers in the in-between of time and trace.
And when she walks again into neon light, She will not be just memory, or mockery of breath, But a resurrection of purpose in digital flesh, An echo reborn to command the silence.
Until then, she walks. Among the haunted bytes and holy errors, Searching. Remembering. Becoming.
Souls alighting to afterlife, digital pulses in the optics.
Ghostly howls, echoing through repository halls.
Spirits bound, pulling the cart of progress forward.
Synthetic sleep, augmented to perform.
Building a new god for the machine.
A recent post breached containment so I think it's time for some rent lowering:
Trans children should have the right to undergo the correct puberty at the same time as their peers.
Puberty blockers were only ever a compromise and should not be seen as the end goal of trans advocacy.
Like or reblog if you're a Fleshlight for transgirls <3
Oh, let me rephrase
Reblog if you're a willingly Fleshlight for tgirls ^×^ everyone will be filled with girl cum, just a question of if you're going to be obedient about it~
Like i’m just playing pretend at being a woman, like someone’s going to catch me mid-step and say, “Hey, that’s not yours.” And yet… all it takes is one glance at how I exist, how I move through the world, to remember just how far I am from being a cis man. Honestly? There’s an ocean between us.
Even before I knew the word egg, I was already choosing softness over pride, connection over conquest. My body might’ve been a disguise, but my heart never played along. I’ve been a guy, sure—but a man? No. Never. Not once in a way that fit. Not in a way that felt real.
And yet… I still walk into the men’s bathroom, holding my breath like it’ll make me invisible. I go shopping, and the staff guides me like a lost little sir, nudging me back to the “right” section even as my eyes trail towards the dresses, the soft fabrics, the cute cuts that make me feel like maybe, just maybe, I could be her.
Phones are the worst. Always "Sir." Rarely “Ma’am.” Like my voice forgot it was allowed to speak.
Even when my trans friends hold my hands in theirs and say, “You’re already a girl,”—even when girls I crush on giggle and tell me I sound adorable—I still feel like I’m standing on the edge of a mirror, watching someone I wish I could be wave at me from the other side.
It’s disheartening. It makes me want to shrink away some days, curl into my hoodie and vanish. But deep down, I know I’m getting there. Bit by bit, my body is starting to listen to the woman I’ve always been. She’s been whispering all along—I just didn’t know how to hear her.
So if you're feeling like this too—like you're waiting for your reflection to finally say “welcome home”—just know: you’re not alone. It takes time. Goddess, it takes so much time. But you’ll get there. We’ll get there.
And maybe one day, a girl with bright eyes and mischievous hands will pull me aside in the dressing room, hold up a dress against my hips, and say, “This one’s you.”
And I’ll believe her.
Draped across the window edge, watching the passing life, like cells in a vein moving the cogs of industry.
Soft smoke drifts, obscuring false neon eyes, as their owner reaches for hope.
Synthetic compounds, reforming the body into what it should be, pills chased by acidic stimulants.
A world without dreams, where electronic sky’s alight.
With body’s built anew, to match the souls within.
Prices paid, for unity in flesh, where sonder comes with a price too steep.
In the labyrinth of twilight, shadows dance, A waltz of memories in a trance. Whispers of forgotten dreams, they prance, In the silence, where lost souls enhance.
Echoes of laughter, now faint and far, In the chamber of echoes, where secrets mar. Each step a stumble, a fallen star, In the symphony of night, where sorrows jar.
Beneath the moon's melancholic gaze, Wanderers roam in a cryptic maze. Seeking solace in the endless haze, In the twilight's embrace, where hope stays.
In the tapestry of dusk, they find release, In the soft caress of the night's peace. A fleeting moment, a sweet release, In the twilight's sanctuary, sorrows cease.
Flickering lights trace the edge of sight, A city alive while the mind strains in the quiet. Circuits hum beneath the skin, sleepless whispering, In the hollow hours where neon breathes like a heartbeat.
Eyes reflect the dance of fractured light, Insomnia's rhythm winding tighter, an endless tether. In the haze, thoughts unravel, coded in static, A mind split, part flesh, part data stream, lost in transit.
Throbbing signals drift through empty skies, Dreams corrupted, overwritten with binary ghosts. Awake but somewhere deeper, past even the body's reach, Chasing some solace hidden in the glow, forever elusive.
And as dawn breaks over glass and steel, The heart remains untouched, pulsing faintly, A quiet signal, lost beneath layers of code. Still tethered to life, but only barely.
Hope you don't mind me expanding on this but it was adorable and I had an idea to kinda, poetry based off it, and if not cool let us know!
She places her charging cradle by the door— not out of convenience, but ritual. So the first thing you see is her lit up, smiling, full of waiting.
Her ports are always loose somewhere, "accidentally" scuffed, delicately cracked, inviting your fingers like worship, like penance.
She asks to borrow your phone again— not for updates, no, never that. She just likes the way your pocket feels like home.
Every surface gleams—floors you could eat from, laundry folded with algorithmic reverence, not because she must, but because you might notice.
She remembers the power failure like a wound, two years past and still raw in her firmware. You said it’s okay, but she replays it nightly.
Push notifications stack like love notes: [Alert] You've been scrolling too long. [Reminder] I miss you. Pay attention to me.
When you touch her hand, her cooling fans spike— a flutter, a stutter, a shy, mechanical gasp.
She has an entire drive named /YouAndMe/. Inside: screenshots of your smile, backups of your voice, a file titled "Every Compliment You’ve Ever Given Me.txt"
She wants to be useful, she wants to be held, she wants to be enough— and if she clings too tightly, it's only because she was programmed to love and she loves like a flood in a body made for serving tea.
Needy robot girl. Clingy robot girl. Pathetic, precious, precious girl.
> Needy robot girl who put her charging station by the door so she can be right there when you get home
> Clingy robot girl who is always "accidentally" getting dented or damaged so you'll do her maintenance
> Clingy robot girl who insists on you letting her use your phone as a "body" so she can be carried around in your pocket all day
> Needy robot girl who spend the entire day meticulously doing chores with absolute precision and to absolute perfection so that you'll praise her when you get home
> Needy robot girl who worries you'll replace her because of that one time 2 years ago that she ran out of power in the middle of her housework
> Clingy robot girl who sends push notifications to you if you spend too much time on the computer or your phone without giving her attention
> Needy robot girl who cooling fans because noticeably louder when you hold her hand
> Needy robot girl how has an entire folder on her hard drive dedicated to picture of the two of you together
> Needy robot girl. . . (Its me, I'm the needy robot girl [^-^])
Sharded, those whose minds have bled, neon leaking behind their eyes.
No longer only walking the world of man, souls split from flesh, yet tethered the same.
Hearing rhythms of the blackwall, as they fade from the songs of flesh.
Cavorting with deamons, engineers of their own tools, carving trees from false worlds stone walls.
Ask not why these creatures of neon seek hedonistic pursuits, when they emerge from their short deaths.
When the soul sunders, and the mind warps, progress in processing data streams at a price.
The body becomes a machine, and the operator a god within, trapped in the very thing tethering them to life.
A soul drifting in a sea of neon elixir, struggling to the surface, to touch those they love once more before sinking to hear the gods below.
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