y’all ever feel like you were the most mature and grownup kid ever when you were younger (somehow i was proud of it cuz i felt like i was unique) but then as you become an actual adult you feel like a toddler in a grownup body who’s just trying to catch up to everybody else in life on your lil stubby legs and end up having a tantrum and wanting mac n cheese and a sippy filled with juice? thats me all the time
There comes a certain sadness in being a regressor without a caregiver, but also one who's severely traumatized and neglected. Finding comfort in dark moments by tumblr caregiver posts, feeling like someone cares. Not entirely understanding nostalgia and getting sad when seeing posts about favorite childhood snacks, movies, activities because you never grew up on them. Feeling awkward while playing and or having to relearn it because it wasn't really a thing. I wasn't allowed or given many toys at all. Seeing other regressors happily posting about their caregiver, feeling bittersweet. I'm glad they have them, they deserve happiness and support- but will I ever get that? I hope one day that's me too. Living through cartoons: wishing you had a friend group, family, or whatever like those characters. Happy endings. Imagining lots of scenarios or talking to character.ai cg characters, wanting it to be real so bad. Wanting a caregiver, yet being so scared about being a "difficult" regressor or needing "too much care and comfort." Wishing there was just someone to hold me and pat my head while tiny, playing with my hair and giving me their full attention. It would feel weird, really weird- I don't get attention much, but I'd hope that little me would be okay and happy with that. Bottom line, I hope for the fun days and happy ending of finding someone who will love me and accept my regression. If there's any regressors out there with c-PTSD, trauma, or really just anything that makes them fearful they won't ever get it- please keep trying. One day. I always tell myself that I'm sure I'll be so happy in the future, and look back on moments like these going "she was strong. she didnt know of the moonlight that would hug her everyday, yet she still pushed through- she made it"
Why would they want to know about my trip Spain without the S when they should be more interested in the trip to Spain without the A aspect of it
Its always, "ohh you shouldn't drive you have a concussion," or "hey don't lift that, you have a concussion," never "hey did you have fun spinning around?"
it’s not necessarily that I hate the themes most prevalent in fiction set in the real world and it’s not necessarily that I don’t like stories revolving around real people or relationship drama or interpersonal issues it’s more like im a dog who doesn’t recognize that a pill is still a pill if it has peanut butter on it. I need like the little peanut butter spoonful that is aliens or robots or monsters or time travel or something fantastical and not at all down to earth real life so that you can approach me and be like “this story is about how friendships can deteriorate over time and also how this guy feels bad for being a bad friend and causing his buddy problems with their girlfriend” and then look at me making a face at you and be like “AND! they’re all aliens who are doing all that across spacetime” and I’ll be like OHHHHHH OKAY YAY (shlop shlap shlup the sound of a dog horking down peanut butter pills) wow what a poignant story
imagine what would happen if Wayne and Shallan met
"You do good work," Sigzil said, rising, picking up his bowl. "At first, I hated you for lying to the men. But I have come to see that a false hope makes them happy. What you do is like giving medicine to a sick man to ease his pain until he dies. Now these men can spend their last days in laughter. You are a healer indeed, Kaladin Stormblessed."
-The Way of Kings, chapter 40
— • Anxious Bunny
What’s wrong, bun? Why are you hiding down there? There is a lot of dust under your bed..come, come, food is almost ready. If you want to get to the park early we’ll have to leave soon..oh? Anxious? Oh, bunny, there is no need to be anxious. Here, sit by me and tell me what’s wrong. No need to be nervous, I’m right here for you my little bunny…Oh dear, well, it’s okay to be anxious even if we don’t know why. Sometimes, we wake up a bundle of nerves! And even if we woke up in a soft, warm bed, our mind can play little tricks and make us think that something is wrong. I know that what I say won’t make it go away immediately, but we can try to soothe these thoughts and make them less loud. Would you like to try that? Yes? Okay, let’s take some deep breaths together…yes, just like that. Feeling any better? Alright, now how about we find a little distraction from these anxious feelings? Come along sweetheart, I made you your favorite. After that, we can go to the park, okay?
Oh, sweetheart, come here. Let me hold you for a moment.
I can see that something’s weighing on your little heart, and that’s okay. You don’t have to be happy all the time. You don’t have to push your feelings away or pretend they’re not there. It’s okay to feel sad, or angry, or scared. Feelings can be big and heavy sometimes, but you don’t have to carry them all on your own.
I’m right here, love bug. No matter what you’re feeling, I will always be here. You don’t have to explain, you don’t have to fix anything—you can just be, exactly as you are. If you need to cry, I will hold you close. If you need to stomp your little feet, I will be right here to keep you safe. If you need quiet, I will sit beside you and hold your hand so you know you’re not alone.
You are so precious, just as you are, in every feeling, in every moment. Your emotions don’t make you too much, and they don’t make you bad. They just mean you are you, and that is the most wonderful thing in the whole world.
So take all the time you need, my angel. I will love you through every feeling, every storm, and every quiet moment in between. I will be here, always, with open arms and an open heart, ready to give you whatever you need.
You are never alone, little one. You are safe. You are cherished. And you are oh-so deeply loved.
hc that jon just. can't do quick kisses bc he's such an intense person
office pride? in the gay people podcast?? impossible
Just tried to play an ancient flute and it started filling the room with this awful miasma that wont go away
Hiii I’m Addie, I’m 17, a trans girl, and kinda newish here :) I’m an age regressor and a massive nerd(those are unrelated though lol) My favorite book series are the Stormlight Archive and the Wheel of Time!!!I’m also most likely autistc :)
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