Kaffeepause In The Study

“i don’t get hannibal lecter” it’s about being the worst person in the world and yet someone still loves you despite it and it’s about convincing yourself you’re fine living your life alone and never truly connecting with anyone until someone comes along and you realize you could never live without them now and it’s about caring about someone so deeply that all you want now is for them to truly see you and it’s about how your devotion is so crushing and deep that you’d go to lengths of even self-destruction just to keep them around so you can keep loving them. “but he’s a cannibal” lol yeah

ah yes, my nightly pre-sleep ritual of cracking every bone in my body so that I might prepare them for the sleep when they will never move again.

Early s3 in my hannibal rewatch and I cant stop thinking about what if hannibal or will had kissed one another at any point in mizumono, but especially as will was bleeding out in hannibals arms.

Hannibal, feeling wills blood drain out of him, hearing it, his shuddering breaths in his ear. Keeping him standing by the hold of his arms around him. Knowing he's saying goodbye so he kisses him, maybe on the cheek? It would probably be the least of Wills concerns in that moment, but it would leave as permanent an affect on his mind as the affect of the stab wound on his body.

Will, taking shaky breaths, barely standing were it not for hannibal, knowing he may never see him again, feeling the blood and the life drain out of him. Why keep up the facade in death? Its hitting him how different this could have ended. It could have ended in a way that allowed for more but it didn't, because will couldnt do the "right" thing. He has to turn his head only slightly for his lips to be against hannibals cheek. The motion a ghost of the future he denied them both.

Anyway I'm very normal about them.

The colors aren’t working right now but I like the first concept :)

Also, ✨tension✨

Geralt is convinced that he only helps Jaskier out and keeps him out of trouble because the consequences are much worse.

He wants to fuck a lady or lord in wedlock? Tried that (more than) once and Geralt had to take down a pack of seven drowners to convince the spouse to keep Jaskier alive.

He makes sure Jaskier puts dry clothes on after a fall in a lake? That’s because a sick Jaskier is so so bad and somehow even with a sore throat he talks more.

But eventually the annoyance fades and slowly, so slowly, time softens the doting he does without much thought. Geralt keeps Jaskier warm even before he complains. Geralt steps in front of Jaskier so he won’t scream.

Someone points it out, eventually. Ciri, probably, but when she asks him why he treats Jaskier like a lover, Geralt almost throws himself off the mountain’s side. It’s ridiculous and he has just gotten used to caring for this helpess and annoying creature that has latched onto him and refuses to shake off.

Geralt doesn’t stop taking care of him.

And if he can’t find the contempt that was there before? Well that’s not for anyone else to know.

#cozy cannibal autumn 🍂

Let’s see how long it takes before this gets flagged

I love having an autistic partner because often their love language is acts of service.

Why are my socks so neatly folded? my love folded them because they like the warmth of fresh laundry. Why is my bed made neatly? because we were hanging out and they like to make beds.

Sure, they will have a miniature panic if I fix something of theirs without them noticing but we laugh at it because it’s me.

I love being special to an autistic person because they tell me they love be more than their safe food (it’s bagels).

You're just a mammal. Let yourself act like it. Your brain needs enrichment. Your body needs rest. You feel hunger and grow hair. You need to pack bond with other sentient things so you don't become unsocialized and neurotic. You are biologically inclined to seek dopamine and become sick when chronically stressed. Outrage about hedonism is made up to place moral value on taking pleasure in sensory experiences. I am telling you that if you don't let yourself be a fucking mammal, as you were made, you will suffer and go insane. No grindset no diets no trying to be above your drive for connection. Pursue what makes you feel good and practice radical rejection of the constructs meant to turn you into a machine. You're a mammal.

THE WAY VIKTOR IS IN PATROCLUS’ SPOT AND ENDS UP IN ELYSIUM DESPITE EVERYTHING AAAAAAAA

hades x arcane crossover ⭐️