Real. I Don’t Really Use Anything Else So If Tumblr Dies I’m Gone

Exactly! Especially when we want nothing more than to be accepted for who we are, only to somehow keep screwing things up

To be autistic is to live in a constant state of yearning that can never be fulfilled

Sooooo I know I said I’d probably post some art here from time to time, but like I lowkey haven’t had the time to do any since starting school. I wanna draw so bad but I just don’t have time

Literally every time I come up with an NPC on the spot they become an unoffical party mascot or some such.

Heck yeah

I am very grateful for the Wolfenstein reboots and the Sniper Elite games because while gaming as an art form has come a long way and all the beautiful stories and complex characters are really wonderful and important, sometimes we need to remember our heritage as gamers, go back to our roots for a bit, and shoot a bunch of nazis in the face

Can’t imagine how people can live their life alone as adults. Like what do you mean I can’t just call up a friend and plan an outing to get food, or watch a movie, or just hang out? What do you mean society and life in general tries to keep people apart??

As a kid I was taught that having friends and being a good friend was super important, but we all let our work and other life worries get in the way of that, so what changed? Is having friends just not actually that important?? Am I missing something or what?

OR, just maybe, it’s me. Maybe, just maybe, I haven’t found the right people yet…

Oh who am I kidding, society hates when people have social lives and friends. All of our time is supposed to be put into making money so rich people can make more money. No time for friends, we gotta spend our time wasting away either in school or at work for the establishment because otherwise it’s really freaking hard to even survive. Moreso work than schooling, since I do believe that getting an education is important, but we also gotta have a good work/life balance so we can have time to spend with our friends and families.

Anyway random thought of the morning over

Late night post = no thoughts head empty.

What if we randomly gained the ability to just grow extra appendages for a time? Like a third arm for an hour or a tail for 20 minutes? What would that do to daily life? What would change if anything?

Such a mood. I wish I had the space to collect more things but I don’t

The autistic urge to collect

NINE SOLS SPOILERS BELOW!! They’re minor non-story spoilers, but I said I’d put a warning anyway, so turn away if you don’t want to deal with it

General Yingzhao flipping sucks coming off a long break of combat games. He’s literally the first real boss of the game and because I haven’t played a video game where parrying is a REQUIRED mechanic in almost three years my skill flipping sucks and I’ve spent a cumulative two and a half hours just trying to consistently get to phase two.

I mean I get his first phase attack pattern really well but I just can’t parry consistently enough to avoid getting absolutely combo-womboed. And when I get comboed I get flipping COMBOED and there’s just nothing I can do but take it.

I “don’t” (I actually do) look forward to the next bosses of the game because I just want my parrying ability to not suck for once lol.

This lowkey sounds angry but I genuinely am so excited for the rest of the game once I can get to it. And it’s purely because this is the first game in a long while where I’ve actually enjoyed how stinking difficult the game is. The story is still confusing for now but I’m just here for the ride with my boy Yi.

Yeah that person usually tends to be myself anyway because I’m such a moron sometimes lol

Sooooo I may or may not have found my new hyperfixation in Nine Sols..

It’s just such a good game. Very solid combat, to the point where I’m genuinely really enjoying the challenge. Art is still very much on point. It’s kind of confusing story-line wise right now though because I’m at the point where it’s starting to reveal a bunch of characters and some backstory stuff. I have a few different theories as to why Yi is on this journey of his, so I’m super excited to get further in the game.

Also my next few, probably several, posts will most likely be about the game so if you don’t want spoilers avoid those. I’ll be putting spoiler warnings on each post so it’s easier to avoid if you dear random viewer don’t want to have the game and story points spoiled.