Asking A Girl If She Wants To Make Out And She Nods Excitedly Then Turns Her Head For You To Kiss Her

system[?] here. i guess? idk, this is just a confession and maybe asking for advice if there is any for something like this. i struggle a lot with singletmoding when depression and dysphoria gets bad, and it has been bad a lot lately. like months. and its hard because im basically just fragments anyways, nothing super distinct. and i dont have a headspace, or voices. so i dont know what to do to make myself feel more plural. sometimes a really distinct headmate comes to front and it feels like something but most of the time it feels like nothing and i miss plurality. but its not easy. idk if theres any advice because so much of it focuses on having a headspace or looking inward or creating a headspace etc etc but when we had tried that before it made the host at the time go dormant due to stress and we still didnt get like a headspace out of it. idk. you dont have to post this, im sorry.

shhhhh anon - so, for the record our system:

doesn't have a headspace or any sense of spatialness related to fronts/switching

doesn't have internal dialogue. we can't write notes either, our brain rejects it

doesn't have a memory split / gaps between headmates - switches are just a slight shift we help happen

tends to hold fronts for days at a time, but finds that fronts often "fade out" into mush after a while, the vividness goes away and it gets kinda generic feeling

and my main sentiment is. don't force it. these quieter types of systemhood are about connecting with yourself/ves, they're about curiosity. they're about exploration and finding new ways to express yourself/ves. and they're all about really small things instead of really big things.

We usually wouldn't offer such specific advice to a specific ask, because we hate prescribing the way systems should be - but this is our personal thought process for when we've masked ourself into a hole and forgotten what we're even capable of experiencing.

So, think of a chime, or a pond - if it's thrashed, it's an unclear mess well after you stop, but if you touch it while it's still, that input resonates, and what you put in slowly comes back to your ears and eyes. Systems often have this "reflective" quality, I think - which means reconnecting with your system often means looking for things you put in to it.

You miss the feeling of your system. That's a good start - let yourself have that. It kinda sucks but, mull over and genuinely explore that feeling. Then keep your ears open from then and into the week, and you just might feel that feeling that your system misses itself/you back. Have a fondness? Same thing. Something you're wearing would look better if certain fragments were more present? *Think* that - picture it. Look after yourself through looking after your system - see if it looks after you back. Feel for that little "delay" between when you feel a feeling, and it comes back to being felt about you.

And hey, even if that doesn't mean "switching and fronts" like you want it to, maybe it'll feel good anyway.

you can be a girl

spiking your drink with estrogen

call that shit “booba tea”

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

it should be socially acceptable to be princess carried everywhere

people think writers make good English teachers but the opposite is true. sixth grader asks why she can’t start a sentence with “and” and im like idk girlie grammar is a construct and language is a fluid gelatinous animal. people used to write “thou” and they were being totally unironic about it. start your sentences with an exclamation point for all i care. a+

Lipstick marks have nothing on hickies. Like, one is the residue of a "beauty product" sold to women as part of a patriarchal demand that they conform to impossible standards of beauty, and the other is something you did yourself, a labor, a work of art in the medium of your own lips and lungs and teeth on your lovers skin.

trans girls who have headache are allowed to kill

imagine how cool it would be if plurality had the visual effects it's dramatized to have in fiction. like if your body's eye colors would change as you came on and off of front. that would be wicked

Saying that the american democratic party is left wing is a wild take.

So today in "Batshit things happening during the Australian election" - the Liberal Party has dropped a rap diss track about the Prime Minister and shopping prices on Soundcloud, and for those wondering, yes it is the worst thing you will ever hear.

As if that wasn't weird enough on its own, there's plenty of accusations circulating that they made the song using AI, given the bizarre choice of using an American accent in the song, and it's been pointed out that the cover art is parodying a Drake album cover which isn't exactly someone you want to be aligning yourself with in a rap battle right now.

Shoutout to this quote from Channel 7's story when the song dropped: