Messy Stuff

loneliness

Everything is just so beautiful and so short…

How lucky I am to live in the same time as you ❤️

My life may not be perfect but at least I’m not attracted to men.

Sometimes I feel that the world is too big for me, sometimes I feel that I don’t fit in this immensity beauty, some part of me just wants to feel it all and the other part of me wants to end and also die.

The world is beautiful and is sad too, I keep observing outside hoping to feel a certain wish of life, feeling the wind through my window, observing the birds that makes me feel that I have the chance to fly far away, the chance to hit the sky and going far from where my eyes can see.

Few days ago I was thinking about Uzumaki Naruto, a quote that I wrote on my journey book diary, it says- “ If you don't like your destiny, don't accept it. Instead, have the courage to change it the way you want it to be." This quote emphasizes the importance of actively shaping one's life and not passively accepting predetermined outcomes. It suggests that I have the domain to change my destiny and my path and create the future that I desire deep in my heart ♥️ But, is that possible that my deepest desires might happen? I keep looking outside of my window and wishing it to happen, the birds still flying….

I always had this fixation of staring at windows, for some reason it always made me feel comfortable, has something genuinely very beautiful and dark between the worlds from here and there, I will never know what impact this will have on my heart.

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"Nobody's Home"

Well, I couldn't tell you why she felt that way

She felt it every day and I couldn't help her

I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?

Too many, too many problems

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs?

She wants to go home but nobody's home

It's where she lies broken inside

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes

Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why

You've been rejected and now you can't find what you've left behind.

Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find

She's losing her mind, she’s fallen behind

She can't find her place, she’s losing her faith

She's fallen from grace, she’s all over the place…

She's lost inside…

Lil orange fungi