Having Anorexia Has Caused Me To Develop Some Sort Of Binge Eating Disorder Too Bcuz Of Food Deprivation.

this is why i’m on right now :/

Ok so...

Guys I can't be alone in this,

Did y'all ever just try to recover for like a few months and then relapsed but your ed is different?

Like before the recovery attempt you could go weeks without binges and exercise everyday no question

And know that you've relapsed you want your ed to be at its "worst" again but now if u make it past 3 days it's a miracle?? 🤔

I can't be the only one who feels extremely nostalgic for the worst time if their life?

spotify really out here giving me thinspo

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed 

(does one thing) hm i think i deserve a little reward :) (walks around in circles listening to music for three hours)

me after not eating all day only to binge and tell everyone online about it:

tips on how to remind myself to not give in to cravings?

i’m trying so hard to get control i feel helpless please

weekly workouts and how to accurately calculate cals !!

these are very easy and basic workouts, obviously you can mold it to your own level of activity but if you’re just getting started in being active this is great 🤗

dm me for credit if these are your posts

stay safe loves 👼🏽

9/01

alright y’all. i’m fr getting this weight off. imma use this account as a personal tracker, so i’m sorry to the very few people who follow me lmao.

weigh in: 127.9 (i think)

so today i went shopping with my friends, and managed to only panic in the dressing room once. then we ate at cheesecake factory :/ i had 420 cal pot stickers and a few bites of other people’s cheesecakes. then we ate boba, which was around 100 cal. my friends gave me some cheez it’s to snack on but not too many, maybe around 10.

i feel like a ginormous whale in my new clothes, i just want to look dainty in them :/

i got this. i’m not giving in this time.

i decided to start this diet but i didn’t like any of the photos that were on google so i made my own!

byee i used the wrong twt, its @/kailbs 😐😐

i need some advice :)

so i’m trying to teach myself that food is not for pleasure, only for energy, and i shouldn’t reward myself with food. what other ways can i reward myself after not binging for a while or completing a fast?