Eating Disorder - Blog Posts
Self care is weird cause it's like, 'what do you mean I'm supposed to be in bed by 10? I'm not tired'. But you are, you just aren't delirious with it.
not before im perfect.
Using my ribs
To slit my wrists
This is the life I live
Obvious cheekbones
You laugh and you throw stones
This is the world I know
Starving off pounds
The wind blows me down
My enemy wears my crown.
I will be deleting this app in pursuit of recovery.
Imma see yall next week
Other people here who just get angry when someone mentions they're dieting.
Not becouse im anti losing weight but becouse I Realy don't want them to think they need to lose weight to be pretty. And I don't want them to develop a ed
Or am I just overreacting
My internal dialogue when I'm eating be like: okay okay I can do this. First bite, hell yea, oh shit this is tasty, nom nom nom. Oh no am 8 eating too much? Am I losing controle? I need to stop eating now, but I don't want to waste food, but I'll be fat, what do I do. I feel stuffed, but it's so good. AAAAAAAAJAJJERRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*internal screaming*
My Ed Realy be out here making me pretend like off of low kcal drinks and a occasional hot choclate milk and a small snack is in fact enough.
I be telling myself I feel completly fine only to completly collapse 5 sec later
Me: *watching my body slowly waste away and break apart knowing damn well I could fix it all if I'd just start eating healthy* what's all this then
To my lovely people who are trying to recover from eating disorders.
Allow me to share a tip that helps me.
So I have issues with eating whole meals (don't ask me why, my brain sucks) and I feel extra bad when I finish it all. So I always leave food on my plate.
So here is my tip, put more food on your plate, that way you'll eat more but still don't feel bad for finishing it all.
Maybe you'll feel bad for "wasting" food but right now your health is more important.
This advice might not work for everyone, but feel free to dm me if you want me to help you find tricks that do work.
She’s a bitch. Her tips and tricks take over your head and suddenly lunch is water and dinner is ice and all you’re eating is gum and peppermint candies. But it’s not your fault, It’s hers.
Forgive Yourself // ÅGP
The only difference between EAT and FAT is one line.
— Such a fine line // Å.G.P
The Phases Of An Eating Disorder. 🥀
words suck
What are words?
What could she say?
Everything she wanted to say was stuck in her throat, all the ‘I care about you’s and the ‘I’m not mad at you, I just care about you so much that I can’t bear it when you don’t care about yourself’ and all the ‘I don’t know’s.
Because really, she didn’t know.
She didn’t know a lot of things.
She didn’t know what to say to the self-deprecating comments on the side or the casual mentions of not eating as much and being to unhealthy or the anything.
Did she talk about it seriously? Did she sit him down and tell him that he was perfectly fine just the way he is? No. That would make him uncomfortable.
Did she just dismiss or negate the self-deprecating comments and hope he took it seriously? Maybe, but there’s a chance it won’t work.
What are words?
Her parents had always told her that she took things too seriously. In truth, she just didn’t see the point in things not taken or said literally. What was the point in saying something if it isn’t true and you can’t help anyone by saying it?
Sometimes, she wished everyone else took things as seriously as she did. If they did, she wouldn’t have to worry about miscommunication and honesty.
If they did, maybe they’d listen to her.
She had so much to say, but finding a strategy to say it and coming across in the right way so they would pay attention was stressful.
She really wished she could find a way to talk to him in the right way.
What are words?
Taken literally, words are a form of communication, verbal and nonverbal. Words come in many languages and interpretations, so there’s a million ways to say anything that comes to mind.
Words are also a way to shape and share thoughts, going above and beyond the basic need for survival most animals prioritize.
But, as humans are the apex predators, they have a lot of freedom to just think.
And think they do.
What is the meaning of everything? Is there a purpose to life? Is there a reason we’re here? Should we even be here?
Should I even be here?
Why?
And she doesn’t have an answer. She doesn’t know what to say. She never does.
She’s been given a thousand answers to her million questions, and although that’s a lot of answers, it’s not enough in the context.
Will she ever know enough?
Will she ever have enough?
…
Will she ever be enough?
And she doesn’t know.
So she keeps asking questions and hoping for a single answer per every hundred or thousand, and hopes she’ll be enough to help him.
Hopes she’ll be enough to help anybody.
Maybe everyone else sees that she helps one person, and that she must be good at it, and they don’t see the dozen before that she couldn’t help.
Is it enough?
...
Words suck.
Songs about eating disorders,mental illnesses, loneliness and love
ed shows/movies you recommend?? i’ve seen supersize vs super skinny and to the bone :)
i hit my first gw!!
i was 123 lbs a year ago.
i am now 2.5 inches taller, and at the same weight. this feels euphoric :)
i’ve officially lost 10 lbs! 20 more to go
100 days til new years :)
100 days of no binging.
100 days to get to ur ugw (or pretty close).
100 days to finally do it.
feel free to use this if you’d like :)
*dont forget, stay safe! eat if you need to! don’t push ur self so hard ily <33
safe foods?
can y’all tell me ur safe foods i’m going grocery shopping tonight and i really just wanna have foods i can eat without worrying :)
i need some advice :)
so i’m trying to teach myself that food is not for pleasure, only for energy, and i shouldn’t reward myself with food. what other ways can i reward myself after not binging for a while or completing a fast?
me: gets slightly angery because of someone
my mind: well guess what?? i’m gonna starve myself now and it’s ur fault >:)
having anorexia has caused me to develop some sort of binge eating disorder too bcuz of food deprivation. now i’m gaining instead of losing. wtf ana this isn’t what i signed up for
i wanna just starve myself to death but i’m not skinny enough to die yet.
am i the only one who’s having trouble remembering things? i feel like my ed has caused my brain to go slower and it feels overcrowded all the time, i keep screwing up and saying incorrect things without even realizing it :/
My finals are coming up, they're 5 hours each
My teacher just talked 5mins about what, when and how we should eat 🤣
"Dont eat too much, then your tummy will hurt and it'll be hard to focus. But dont eat too little either, then your growling stomach will distract you"
Sir, I have an eating disorder. I dont know how to eat so that it's beneficial for me
I have an anorexic friend.
She was in a clinic and is now forced to go to therapy and to at least maintain her weight yet she loses again, slowly but surely
Atm, her BMI is 17-17.5
She eats 1500 cals a day and exercises for at least 60min
On the contrary, i am not diagnosed. I binge. I dont workout daily. Yet im still struggling, having food rules, taking laxatives, trying to lose weight, obsessing over food, hating my body
She is convinced that my 'problems' arent real, that Im perfectly fine, healthy, and have nothing to complain about
This really REALLY fucks me up
