Aerti - Blog Posts
Basically developing a fancast at this point but just with ff7 characters
That’s Tifa as Butch btw aerti for the win
Thanks for the support @a-view-without-light-pollution <3
Commentary on aroace/lesbian “fujoshi”
CW: talk of porn (the good and the bad), sex, and gender. Pretty graphic language and imagery. Sex repulsed aroace people BEWARE.
I would like to start this off by saying I am an aroace lesbian. What does that mean? Simply - I don’t want sex, nor romance, but if I did, I know where I’d find it. I love WOMEN. All women. Any women. I also really like yaoi, and I’ve seen some minimal discussion about specifically women who love yaoi or BL, and I’d like to add my two cents.
Several people online seem to take “lesbians liking yaoi” as just a natural reaction to the overall market of fiction. That is to say, there’s not a lot of options. There is a side to yuri which appeals to women, yes. But the way I see it, it’s either magical girl or slice of life, or, written by a man. And most of the stuff written by men is porn - bad porn. Thus it doesn’t appeal to women who actually like women.
In the same vein there is hetero stuff, which some lesbian/aroace yaoi enjoyers say doesn’t appeal to them because the majority of it has a male/female dynamic that is skewed. Oftentimes the woman is portrayed as weak or perhaps just isn’t a correct representation of the lesbian/aroace consumer. So why even bother?
Anecdotal, but I have had this experience too. I have a hard time getting into any kind of hetero ship because the women are often unrelatable or worse - just uninteresting. I don’t like men, so why would I care if it was just some faceless dame and her super hot husband? I don’t give a shit about him.
I’ve found that I enjoy a lot of hetero ships from demon slayer. Some may find this contradictory because there has been some commentary on the usefulness or intrigue around women in demon slayer. I think the demon slayer women are very interesting, story wise and appearance wise, and they fit very well with the men I ship them with. That is to say - men in demon slayer are simps for beautiful, strong, independent women - and I eat that shit up.
Most hetero stuff, however, is victimizing the women. Knowingly or unknowingly. It’s sad that if I want to get my rocks off to Mitsuri x Obanai, I have to scroll through like eight pages of the same inflation, big tits big ass no tummy, fart porn all sourced from the deepest dredges of Apocrypha. In fact, most of the time if you have the balls to like a fictional woman enough to want to see her getting respectfully banged, the cisgender heterosexual gooner men have already beaten you to the punch - and now you see her with her face in a smelly man’s ass. (All real examples by the way)
So it’s not to say I don’t like yuri, or hetero, it’s just that if I want to see women getting railed - I’m very particular. As I should be.
Yaoi, some people on the internet say, sets the men it’s focused around on equal footing. Instead of the woman being the damsel or a plain sexual object, the uke and seme are usually just two dudes. Not to say there aren’t power dynamics in yaoi - just to say that those power dynamics don’t hurt my pride as a woman. It doesn’t victimize a girl for somebody else’s sick kicks.
Yaoi, at least the kind I read, also can have an element of one man (the uke) usually being pretty soft or feminine. Why? Well that’s a pure reflection of how I (and other people) view sex. There is the giver and the receiver, the top and the bottom, the dom and the sub. Not that those lines don’t get crossed - they do, all the time. But as good ol’ Tevye says about Anatevka… TRADITION! (Sorry. It’s 3 AM)
The way I see it, it’s a way of having that traditional dynamic (pretty soft bottom and strong handsome top) without victimizing a woman. I do the same with yuri ships - I absolutely love love love a stone top with a pillow princess. And also - and I say this with no sense of shame - femboys are cute. Women are the superior form. Soz. So it’s awesome to see a man invoking his feminine side. It’s not like it makes him any less of a man. No matter how many times my mom peers at my drawings of Cloud Strife and says, “She’s pretty.” It doesn’t change the fact that he is him.
Gender is a fickle thing. It comes and it goes. I used to have a very conservative view of gender, and even sexuality. I was a “gold star lesbian”, and wanted nothing to do with men (still do, irl). You know what changed me? You’re gonna laugh. My Hero Academia. Oh, did I say you were gonna laugh? I meant cringe.
It’s not what you think. Bakudeku actually traumatized me - not the ship itself but one story I read on AO3 that I now understand for the masterpiece of terror and grossness it is. I would drop it but I don’t want to draw any undue attention to it.
What changed my mind on gender was actually Tomura. It didn’t even happen on purpose, l didn’t see him and go, “Oh he’s pretty, let’s dump a little more estrogen into him”. I shipped him with Dabi, paired them off as two dudes gettin it on, and I was loyal to my m/m ships. I ignored the ones tagged “Trans Tomura Shigaraki” because my brain refused to compute it. But then… I ran out of male fics. Well ran dry. I was getting anxious. I needed my shigadabi fix and how to get it?
Well. Can’t be that bad for Tomura to have a pussy.
… huh. He’s cute.
Oh no.
And that’s how it happened.
Just like that, my worldview shifted. Proud to say I’m a lot more open to gender and sexuality, now. It’s sometimes hard to admit that I used to have such rigid views. It’s a bit embarrassing - but I was also 13. My Hero just gave me the push I needed to grow up.
I’ll wrap it up now.
If you’re a lesbian or if you’re aroace and you like reading yaoi - don’t feel bad. Don’t even question it. Fiction is fiction, we’re here for such a short time you might as well enjoy the things you consume, whatever that may be. It doesn’t make you any less of who you are. It might mean that you’re just a feminist. Or it might mean you have some issues with your gender you need to hash out. Or maybe it means you just like hot guys. Who cares?
Some people argue why lesbians and aroace people like yaoi so much. There are many different answers. I’m not really concerned with them, anymore, now that I’ve found my own. What does concern me is the amount of people who I assume are outside of fandom circles… never having heard of women (lesbian or not) enjoying yaoi or BL. Several reddit comments asked, “There are lesbians who like that stuff? I’ve never seen one.”
Lemme tell you, these people are missing something awesome in life. Yaoi written by women is like fucking crack.
Aerti Week - Day 5: forget-me-not
[Image Description: A digital sketch of Aeris braiding forget-me-nots into Tifa's hair. Tifa is shown from the shoulders up, glancing back at Aeris with a soft smile. Aeris's face is partly out-of-frame, her smile just visible. The sketch is colored in monochrome sepia save for the blue of the flowers. /end ID]
AerTi In Space: AU concept
When the team fight their way through Hojo's lab in the Shinra building, Tifa and Aerith pass the central pedestal and see cracks in Jenova's tube. In a split second, glass shatters, mako splashes, black tendrils are everywhere. Around Tifa's throat.
This body fades. And you are...
Compatible.
We must continue. We must endure.
Bluish veins snake down Tifa's limbs as Jenova's infection spreads, dissolves into her.
One eye jitters and flashes scarlet when Tifa first connects to the hive mind. She summons a lightning storm which shorts out most of the containment in the lab, then blows a hole in the ceiling and ascends to the roof of the Shinra building.
By the time Aerith and the team reach her, she's surrounded by robed figures, R&D monsters, flanked by Cloud and Sephiroth.
They all call her 'Mother' now.
Aerith, one of the few not under Neo-Jenova's thrall or restrained by those who are, fights through and begs Tifa to wake up, to come back.
But when she touches Tifa's hand, she feels something more invasive, more wrong than she's ever felt in her life. Aerith's skin bubbles where they touch, something is crawling and burning through her veins, and she screams.
The awakening of a new Jenovan node has caught the attention of both the Jenovans and a spacefaring sect of Cetra who departed thousands of years ago and evolved separately to those who remained on Gaia. Two warships glitch into existence in the blue lightning bruised-sky maelstrom above the Shinra building.
Tifa and Aerith are whisked away by their respective alien peoples. (To avoid making Gaia even more of a mess, and because Tifa's now a crucial, living part of the Jenovan collective.)
Aerith tries to understand what it is to be Cetra far from Gaia's lifestream. The Cetra who left and became space-farers are entirely different - the only similarity is their connection to the energy flow of the universe, but it is strange, and unfriendly, and metallic, and far too big. Where does Aerith belong now?
Kept apart by their peoples, who are bitter enemies, Aerith and Tifa maintain a mysterious mental connection across the galaxy.
They meet in dreams, but when you're both lifeforms whose consciousness transcends physical bodies, where is the line between dreams and reality? And how much are the Jenovans, watching now that Tifa is the centre of their everything?
If they escape, will there even be a home to return to?
Tifa: “It’s just that when Aerith’s around me I can’t think straight…”
Tifa, internally: girls, pretty, kissing aerith, pussy-
AerTi: *crossing the street and a car almost hits them*
Tifa: “I’m so sorry!”
Aerith: “WATCH WHERE YOU’RE FUCKING GOING!!”
