Borderline Pd - Blog Posts
oh my god princes chelsea is a genius... i love this song so much all the interpretations of it are so relatable it's insane it's legit a bpd anthem
it's breaking me to cry for nothing
no one
something I never had
and probably never would
it's a longing that has no end
no reason
- after a negative pregnancy test
I can't form so much as a tear
but I seem to be drowning still.
I can't feel the hurt or the pain,
only the excruciating absence of happiness.
I'm so sick of these destructive defense mechanisms that do protect me from getting hurt but at the same time trigger the fear of abandonment, because of which I employ these mechanisms in the first place.
What the fuck.
PLEASEEE HELP ME
how can I tell if I have bipolar disorder
I reeeeallly think so but It feels fake because I haven't been diagnosed. I've read about symptoms and everything but idkkkk I get so unstable and then I'm fine idk what to do and I don't know if I should get diagnosed because then my mom would know and I'd have to take meds and I don't want that
Idk I like the picture
THEY REPLACED ME
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they said i was their favourite
they said they loved me
they said that IM their number one
WHY DID THEY REPLACE ME
DID I JST MEAN NOTHING TO THEM
DID THEY JST LIE THIS WHOLE TIME
IF THEY WERE TELLING THE TRUTH, HOW DID THEY REPLACE ME SO EASILY
am i rlly that replaceable?
to that one person
no revenge bcz one day ull realize i only had the purest intentions towards u, i never hurt u, all i did was love u, n i hope ull realize it n that itll haunt u for the rest of ur life
you might not like me anymore but ill always love you. ill never meet someone who is as amazing and pretty as you, and, in turn, youll never meet someone whos even a little bit similar to me, and i hope that fucking haunts you.
Unfortunately this sounds so me
date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me
being a man with bpd is so embarrassing. fym i have feelings.
guilt eats away at my flesh. it settles in my bones. it lives within my chest.
Nothing hurts more than constantly being misunderstood
At this point being in love with you has become a part of my personality. So what’ll happen if I stop?
I want to pull out all my teeth randomly one night and then scare the shit out of people the next day. Or pull out every alternate tooth so none of them are touching and then put silver caps on the rest of them haha
I want you to dig your hands into my flesh and pull all my bones out one by one and get rid of this humming ache under my skin
I miss you. You make me feel safe. More than you make me feel sick. Whenever I have moments of peace, I think of you. I wish you were there with me.
Fuck everything fuck everyone fuck the central line fuck uni fuck the government fuck inflation fuck the economy everyone should just fucking die and I am going to go live in a post-apocalyptic country side
next time you say something even slightly mean or offensive I’m going right for your throat
I hope you die, *****. Or I hope you move away forever and I never see you again. But it’d be satisfying if you just died. I wish I could forget you existed and erase all my memories of you. But it’d be more realistic if you just died.
I wanna talk to you so badly but then why does every conversation with you taste bitter and make me feel sick
It’s gonna be FUN!!!!! IT’S GONNA BE FUN! FUN!
(Me trying to convince myself to not throw up when I have to do things I volunteered to do)
I wish you loved me as violently and consumingly as I love you
I thought I felt this way because I miss you but I probably just have a disorder. Maybe it’s both.
if I think about you long enough or hard enough will I cross your mind?
I’m so angry I don’t know what to do. I need help. I’m so angry it’s hurting my chest. It’s like clawing at me from the inside.
HE TEXTED ME AHAOWNDOANFHEJEHEHDNFJEOWKFHEOFNWOFHEISNEIFJEOFNSODNIEHR this has to be a a disease at some point right I mean this is not normal
The way I was so upset and tired and I started to dissociate and drift off and then I got a text message from you and my mood instantly changed. I couldn’t stop smiling and I was bouncing on my feet. And you have no idea. Text me back u rat I need saving again.
The way I was so upset and tired and I started to dissociate and drift off and then I got a text message from you and my mood instantly changed. I couldn’t stop smiling and I was bouncing on my feet. And you have no idea. Text me back u rat I need saving again.