First World Problems - Blog Posts
Bad roomba!
First world problem 7594
My roomba knocked one of my Macs down
First Time
This moment when you start having sex for the first time, but you are so afraid and scared and don’t know what to do and feel bad about the boy who is trying to loosen you up and calm you down.
And then you fall asleep and later be afraid of showing that you are awake in the middle of the night.
And then you suddenly realize you’re probably really gay and demisexual (like you have been questioning) and now you just want to run out of his house and disappear but cant because his parents are awake and he is a light sleeper and he is actually one of your best friends and you would feel bad about just running away but also feel guilty for leaving him with blue balls.
I hate myself rn for this so much. Where is my confidence gone? Ah yeah right it always has been a fake mask, I forgot.
More effort put into comparing and choosing a save file to overwrite than choosing my university courses
And then comes the verdict
first world problems
My current first world problem is that I'm so close to being a first generation college student
*my mom is from Natchez Mississippi, a pretty poor area, no one on her side of the family graduated college except her mom (I think she did a short teaching program) and cousin (went to a random school in mississippi).
*my dad is from virginia. his dad went straight to the military and didn't go to college, and his mom dropped out of college (story for another time)
My mom joined the Army after high school to pay for college and my dad went to West Point and joined the military. For graduate programs they went to Troy State. I am grateful for this because it allowed them to get better jobs, access to secure military bases, and slightly more respect in the world. BUT I refuse to become a service member. SOOO I don't have any parent connections at any school that I would be a good fit for.
tl;dr
both of my parents are first-generation college students with army-based careers but that story DOESN'T HELP ME AT ALL because being a second-gen student doesn't mean squat and i don't have a family connection in fields outside the army ):
Like I don't want to join the army or even work as a civilian member of the army workforce. I'm sick of it. I want to be a biochemist, d.o., or environmental scientist! And yes I could do those within the gov but I'm sick of the US government. I don't want to help the government. I want to help the world.
