Infj Personality - Blog Posts
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People I want to surround myself with:
bohemians, intellectuals, artists, idealists, philosophers, librarians, humanists, antiquarians, bibliophilist, cinephile, pacifists, dreamers, dancers, existentialists, cultivated persons, travellers, Parisians, introverts, vintage lovers, humanitarians, visionaries, profound thinkers etc.
Laughing at myself as I go through some old emails from grad school. If you ever wanted an email version of an INFJ door slam, it looks like sequentially replying to a social group email chain with:
"Thank you for the invitation! I’m so sorry I can't make happy hour."
One week later...
"Unfortunately, I can't make the birthday party."
Two weeks later…
“I’m unable to join that day.”
One month later...
"I won't be there."
Four months later...
"I'm moving to South Africa."
People might shout and swear at the narcissist. And think they’ve put them in their place. But really they’ve played into their hands. Like a petulant young child, if a narcissist can’t get positive attention, they’ll settle for negative. And a good argument or telling off still fuels their fire. Yes, they’re happy you’re focusing on them. Even if you’re telling them how awful they are.
The above quote is from: https://narcissisms.com/why-narcissists-create-drama/
I read through an old journal today, with entries from a time when I was in an emotionally manipulative relationship. INFJ's are particular magnets for malignant and emotionally abusive individuals. I didn't know it back then, and even though I know it now, it still hurts to remember it.
It took me almost a decade to realize that with certain people, attempting to have a calm conversation about your needs and feelings is actually a field day for their continued emotional manipulation. The alternative--standing up for yourself and being assertive, or even letting your righteous anger flow--also fails to resolve things and, what's more, it even fails to create any amount of distance between you and the offender. In fact, anger feeds the narcissist, and further fuels their desire to remain attached to you like a leech. Whether it's a calm conversation or a fury-filled telling-off, both give them exactly what they want--attention, be it good or bad.
It took me a while to realize that even when I was driven to tears, when I was sobbing to my ex about how much he had hurt me, that in those moments, he seemed to gain an air of peacefulness. My anger seemed to be a key that unlocked a sense of comfort within him. At first I thought I was misreading him. Then, when I realized I wasn't, I thought it odd. Then, when I realized that my despondent tears actually fed his need to be needed, and that because of that, he was totally okay driving me to tears over and over again--I finally realized I had had enough.
The INFJ "door slam" is a gift. It is not a flippant choice, but wisdom pulled from the depths of an almost unbearable despair. At some point, you get the point--reasoning nor anger can fix it. Only an end can fix it. A total and complete end. Cut ties to that person. Take the ties and burn them. Then gather up the ashes, douse them in gasoline, and burn that shit a few more times.
Then walk away and be free.
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This will be my answer for the first 37 times I meet you.
And then one day I will give an honest answer--immediately regret it--and then take 8 months to text you back about meeting up for lunch.
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...I’m sending ENTP in first.
Where To Find Me If I've Disappeared:
-Sitting under a tree, reading a book
-Basking in moonlight
-Stargazing
-Wandering in a forest
-Sitting by an ocean/jumping in the ocean
-Looking up in the sky
-Getting lost in thought/daydreaming, anywhere
-Writing poems in the rain
-Jumping in puddles in the rain
-Writing during a storm
-Crying, anywhere
-Being captured by aliens
-Being locked up in my room, watching anime
-Spending time with any animal to exsist. Ever.
-Sketching at a coffee shop
-Spending time with the best people in the world, AKA my friends
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