Let Me Live In My Delusions - Blog Posts
good news
(based on a scene in chapter 70!)
Stress got so bad i turned into a fairy
happy bad batch day to one of my fave characters that’s alive & well & will make a surprise appearance🫶🏻 (feed my delusions please)
sorry, did you say,
“toxic, dangerous, sexy af and could probably kill me at any given moment if they wanted”?
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oh nooooo i’ve found another cute, awkwardly endearing, adorably nerdy smart funny man to obsess over!!! nurse, she’s out again!!!!!!
except this one really is my soulmate fr i’m manifesting it🕯️🤞🏼🪄🕯️🤞🏼🪄🕯️
When all you want is peace, but you keep on being tested and now all you think of are hard decisions to take like choosing to walk away or try harder.
Maybe, maybe just this once
We can allow ourselves a happy ending.
this year i’m gonna attend a college while being delusional and living my dark academia knowledge superiority classicist stunning university building beauty-craving soul fantasy
Finally blocked by everyone how has hurt me and I wanted to text back! I'm now free of any temptation
i tried to be good, am i no good?
I wish I was her, she has EVERYTHING I desire, she is gorgeous, she is nice and kind...
I'm going to k1ll that fcking twink with my bare hands
I love my philosophy class, it makes me feel smart
I need to connect with someone again, I swear I can be a good friend, I'm just too shy irl. I feel soo alone without someone how truly understands me
If you are my friend but you don't support my delusions, you are actually NOT my friend
“birds of a feather we should stick together”
i used to skip class in high school to go to concerts
and pinned the tickets on my bedroom door
(which is kind of stupid come to think of it now)
(if you don’t want your parents to find out somehow)
didn’t allow me to go and see placebo
went to muse without telling
2003
i was fifteen
badass 😂
a note my dad wrote in a book he gave me
jonathan franzen - freedom
ripped the page out
because i had to leave the book behind
somewhere in australia
a backpack ain’t a hogwards trunk 🫠
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“like a bird on a wire”
Conversation with friend(s) - recycled
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TAYLOR f*cking ALISON SWIFT
🤯🤯🤯🤯
WHAT ARE YOU DOING
i’m scared
this is starting to feel like a never ending fever dream
or more like a (girlfriend in) a coma
it’s serious i know
but please take us with you when you go
I feel so much better adding these to my drinks. May have more energy and can walk easier. But I feel better not amazing and cured. Why am I not cured? 🤨 I was told water and exercise is gonna cure me /sar
No but seriously I recommend these they’re great
CHECK THE DATE GUYS!!!! TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!
MY WALKER IS ARRIVING THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY 🎂
Guys.. I was able to take a short walk and go up the stairs easier. I think I might be cured from chronic illness 🤭
If I like and reply to their Instagram stories enough, surely we’ll become friend. Right?
I fear when I look at photos of him on Pinterest my stomach literally does a flip
there's only 6 things I love. my family, Taylor swift, cats, gardening, baking, and MEN
how does one get over a summer love?
I miss the way you used to look at me. I spend most of my time living in memories and trying to remember what you sound like.
all I can do is stare at your name and hope that something will happen
All I want is you. Please don’t leave. Please don’t leave to be with her. I love you so much. Please leave her and be with me. Please please please please please I love you. You’re literally the male version of me we’d be so great together. Please I’d make you feel like a king every day. I love you please don’t leave. You’re so soft and warm and beautiful and you have the greatest smile and laugh and eyes and I love you so much. Please don’t leave.
I want a handler I want to be cared for I want to be able to relax and have less responsibility I want aftercare I want rules I want to whip my skin until I'm bruised and bleeding I want the pain to center me I want to be whispered to I want to be special I want to know how to reward myself as easily as I can punish -