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Some messy sketches of my favorite girl <3

Thank you for the booOoOooOoops! ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

Hiii beloved mooot!!

Of course!!! Glad you liked 'em 😊😊 And, thank you for all of your boops as well as all of your awesome posts!!! Love seeing the stuff you reblog on my dash!!!!

Thanks a million!!! : )

Okay I realized why it messed up- When I changed my @ it changed the routing link (duh) and since I had the link set to BEFORE I changed my name, it was routing to the old tumblr name with the stories lol. But it should be all fixed now! 

And with that, I will continue writing and posting the ones I was planning to write and post

It has just occurred to me that for some reason my masterlist isn’t working?? So I’m going to try to go through and reroute the masterlist links to the actual posts. I didn’t realize sooner but I don’t know when it disconnected. It shouldn’t give any notification spam, but I apologize in advance if it does 

I think tumblr bugged out so I’m reblogging this...

Here’s a child version of the unnamed oc from my last sketches. I’m very proud because one reason is that it took me all day

I think I’m genuinely gonna give up on the story, I keep making empty promises and the fact every time I post something about my Ocs or it’s not even tf2 related, it’s not very much accounted for so I think I’ll just keep making freak fortress stuff because that’s the only thing that’s keeps getting attention. Sorry to those who even wanted to read it.

To the all the people that are wondering where I was, my phone got a virus and I lost all my progress. Yea….. sorry I had to get a new phone tho!

fuck dude I'm so sad tn . anyway jack doesn't know how to grieve ... both his parents died when he was too young to grieve ... he didn't understand that was how it worked yet . when jack lost his father, he just kept moving ... that's what he always told him to do. 'don't worry, my boy, don't worry. just keep moving. never stop moving, boy. you hear me?'

jack keeps moving. he moves and moves and moves until Davey stops him like a brick wall. one night, davey hugs him just right and jack dissolves. all of a sudden, davey feels tears soaking through his shirt, and feels jack sob. he hugs jack tighter . everything rushes back to jack. the warmth of his little bedroom, his dad's cooking. he never knew his mom, but his dad was better than jack thinks a mom could have ever been.

all of a sudden, jack realises that his father is gone. forever. he died almost 9 years ago.

and fuck, jack never stopped moving for long enough to realise.

oh, hey, i haven't posted in a while.

"my thoughts will follow you into your dreams"

CW : VENT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MLM BUT I NEED TO GET OUT

CW for disabilities and self-harm

I became sick over memorial day weekend (for those who don't know, we have the memorial day off.). Now all of my disabilities are flaring again, and i just got out of a huge flare not even a month ago.

I'm convinced this is because i don't wear a mask anymore. and before you blame me for my own issues, I don't wear one because my family doesn't anymore. I don't like to wear them in the house and due to breathing issues, i cannot wear them for a long time anyways. If i'm gonna get sick being at home or out in public, what's the point? OFC i would wear one if you asked me and would always warn you if i was sick because disabled ppl and able-bodied ppl with preferences matter.. always.

Anyways, I'm just in so much pain. I want to cry and scream and rip out my hair. I want to throw things across the room but all of that would get me recorded and prolly sent back to the psychiatric hospital.

i can't breathe without wheezing and coughing, my knees click when i walk and i keep going into pre-syncope. My fingers ache and i lost my hand brace for my wrist when it locks up. My hips hurt and even sitting criss-cross no longer helps. my back hurts and i can't crack it and i have a major headache.

I had to come home from school today, i begged my parents until they gave in. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I feel as if it'd be better if i just .. wasn't here. That way nobody would have to suffer. anymore. idk

I'm just so.. tired, man. Nothing is going my way, it never has. I'm so so tired, i feel so numb. I don't want to be here anymore.

Since the booping has returned, reblog if it's okay to spam you with boops!

I wanna be polite and not spam random people without permission , ,

I SAW THIS N I HAD TOOO IM SORRY

I AM READY TO GET MY ASS BEATEN 💀💀💀

Credits to the original edit : 2d_from_gorillaz

On insta

I’d rather someone just said what they were going to say, instead of trying to make it better when they know their words aren’t. They already have that feeling of anger and with unchecked anger comes the meanest words ever. Just say it and don’t try to sugarcoat it.

"I don't want to be mean" me right before I say the cuntiest thing imaginable

It's been a while !!

I completely forgot I have a tumblr x___x I forced myself to hold off on posting my valentines day art but ended up forgetting to post it anyways,,, so here it is !! Happy (late) valentines !!

A little after making those, I decided to change my sona's design a little more!! I also made art of them using a picture of Chloe Moriondo as a reference.

And last but not least, I got super hyperfixated on Monster Prom and made some art of it!! Last one was part of an art trade with my friend @neonflynn , who got me into it !!

Guess who my favorite Monster is (don't, actually).

More art is coming! I'm working on a mini OC x Canon of Phos and Damien based on a scene that happens in Monster Camp so keep an eye out !!

Here's some art of my indo OCs (and Phos) pls accept them </3

i would like to thank you personally for just existing.

That’s so sweet! Thank you!

“Hheeeeyyyy…”

“Give me my husband back.”

No. AHAHAUAUAHAH

Sorry, I don't post a lot, I have horrific social anxiety and just anxiety in general. I don't want people to think that I am weird.

I apologize, as this will happen often, but just know that if I like or reblog something of yours, I think you are cool. :)

TLDR: Anxiety stops me from talking to calm people, and it makes me sad :((((

This is a little bit old (*cough**cough*2023) anyway, I still like it a lot and I thought it be cool to post it, IDK the context tho, sorry Janus.

I don`t know how to make the *hide content* thing so

tw: blood and gore

barty and evan both agreed that if they have the oppurtunity to have a threesome with regulus they absolutely will

hey to the anon who asked for xan xan hc, it might take a lil

ok im here to confess that i always thought that ur username was blackpackevil and just yesterday i realized that it was BACKpackevil. .. wtf dude why is your backpack evil/j

The sound I just made was SO cursed I'M LAUGHING SO HARD

I'm actually wiping away tears this is so fucking funny

"wtf dude why is your backpack evil" GOT TO ME SO HARD IDK WHY AKXKJDJXJF

If you want an actual answer to the username question tho it's under read more lmao:

Ahem...this will take a while

I've only really had like 3 usernames in all my time on the internet: the first actual username I used (that I remember using anyway) has my dead name plus a silly adjective I liked back when I was in early middle school; second properly used username I had was literally just my preferred full name that still remains on some social media I haven't used in years and then there's my beloved backpack of the evil variety that I made up over 4 years ago.

It was originally evil.in.your.backpack but then I went to change my username on my socials and that simply wouldn't fit in some sooooo I improvised, narrowed it down to BackpackEvil and ended up liking it more than the og so I just stuck it on every social I use on the same day and yippee that hasn't changed

I can only say that I didn't even have a proper reason for the evils in backpacks kind of username, I just kinda accidentally thought of it while trying to decide on a new username and it stuck

"backpack" is also what I called my sona for the past 4 years (that thing was on most of my profiles the entire 4 years until literally less than a month ago when I picked up my current one of Kaito). I actually designed backpack right before sitting down to think of a name for it (so I guess the username was kinda inspired by this sona)

The sona was always very edgy and shit so idk, the "evil" part kinda stuck. Honestly bLackpackevil also goes into the edgy ass theme so yeah, you definitely got the vibe :D

Also here's some instances of backpack (their design has changed over 4 entire ass years, don't worry about it)

I don't really use them anymore tho, I just draw a chibi version of my irl self because I've grown to like it more than drawing an entire complicated design (sorry backpack)

Y'know, these little guys

(yes I have split dyed black and lightened dark blond hair and I love black and white half and half motifs in my clothing AND I'M NOT BEATING THE DANGANRONPA ALLEGATIONS I KNOW, THIS HAS BEEN MY HAIR AND STYLE SINCE BEFORE THE DR BRAINROT YOU GOTTA BELIEVE ME)

The only thing I can add I guess is that the want to include backpacks in my username kinda came from the fact that (IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY) this was around the time I first tried stitching pins for my school backpack and so my backpack looked sick as fuck because it was customized with nerdy pins from games and anime I liked and well, what can you do I am a nerd after all (some of those pins are still holding up and are on my current main bag lol)

What's funny about that tho is that I can't wear backpacks anymore :D I haven't been using backpacks for like 2 years

That's not a joke, there's some weird issue with the skin on my back and wearing messenger bag/shoulder bag style bags is basically my only choice of not giving my back any more permanent scars

But yeah, backpackevil is kinda catchy and I still like it so I haven't changed it in 4 entire years now and am not planning to any time soon :P